And settle in, because we have a lot of catching up to do! Here are some life updates and thoughts and random things in no particular order…
First up, I’m on what I’m calling an Instagram Diet. It was born out of the desire to cut down some of my compulsive phone behavior, which was getting out of hand. After downloading the Moment App and realizing I was spending the majority of my time scrolling through photos of bundt cakes and skinny butts in levi’s jeans, I deleted the app from my phone, with the exception that I could go on it anytime, but it would have to be through Safari or on my computer. After about four days of withdrawal, I suddenly lost complete interest. Instagram sucks on a safari window; it’s glitchy and out of date. My original plan was to give myself a 30 day break from the app — but I’m over 40 days in and have no desire to end my diet. Even weirder: when I do scroll through Instagram now, I think: THIS IS SO STUPID. No offense to anyone (for real), but it has made me realize how Instagram was designed with compulsion in mind. When you aren’t able to get swept up in the mindless, thumb-scrolling, habitual clicking and liking and stalking of it all, it completely loses its power. One downfall? I missed out on an awesome event in New York City because I didn’t see the posting on Instagram. All in all though, it’s been pretty life changing. Anyone else have a change of heart about social media?
Fellow true crime fanatics: I just started the book I’ll Be Gone in the Dark written by Michelle McNamara, who passed away in 2016 after obsessing for years over the Golden State Killer. The man, whose identity is still unknown, broke into homes in California suburbs in the 70’s and 80’s and perpetrated sadistic murders. The book is really well done — compelling, thoughtful, and humane, and I feel myself getting swept away in the case in the same way Michelle must have. I highly recommend it for anyone who’s in the mood for a dark page turner with substance.
A little self-care trick I’ve been trying recently: every time I do something that makes me feel happy, I write it down. I think it’s important to remember the ways in which we take care ourselves, especially since we’re so good at being our own critics. I’ve been thinking about this recently: we have all been born with a knack for knowing what makes us the absolute happiest. We have the key — no one else. Isn’t that nice? So I have a running list, which includes moments when I took myself out for a cup of coffee and giant slice of cake (see above); when I wandered around Cobble Hill without an agenda, and when my sister-in-law and I settled in for an afternoon of dog cuddles and snacks. From the book, Self-Care for the Real World:
Think of [self-care] as survival of the most resilient: right now you may be deep in the waves of life, being tossed around. Learning self-care is like building your own lifeboat. plank by plank; once you’ve got your boat, you’ll still be rocked by the the same waves but you’ll have a feeling of safety, and a stability that means you can pick up other people on your way.
A few weekends ago, during a little weekend getaway in which I brought two giant bags of Trader Joe’s groceries, I heated up some of the Trader Joe’s Tomato & Roasted Red Pepper Soup and popped mozzarella sticks in the oven. It was the best throw-back little kid snack and really hit the spot. The key is to bake the mozarrella sticks until they’re nicely browned, and then to let them sit for a minute or two to cool down and crisp up. Yummo.
Lastly, I applied to grad school! It took a few pep talks and “I can do it” mantras, but I finally put my head down, cranked out applications, and told myself over and over, “You don’t get what you want in life by wondering when it’s going to happen.” Are people interested in hearing about more the grad school process? Let me know!
I’ve missed you all and can’t wait to catch up more! lots of love always. XO.