I’m very happy to share some news. I’m moving back to New York City! I’ve been entertaining the idea for quite some time now, but things finally clicked into place and I’m excited to head back to the hustle and bustle of NYC. Of course, I’m also anxious about the transition, and the stress has already crept in and shown itself in various, unexpected ways (oh stress, you’re so cute the way you do that).
Over the past few years, I have been waiting for the day to arrive when I would feel fully and completely ready to move. I assumed it would as obvious as a letter in my mailbox saying, “Hi Joy, yup, time to pack up!” and that would be that. I waited…and waited…but it wasn’t happening. To be honest, I don’t think that day will ever come for me here. Woods Hole is beautiful, but beyond that, it’s protected, and safe. I have overheard people describe it as a womb; it has that comforting, safe, nothing-bad-will-ever-happen vibe that attracts homebodies like me and cocoons us into a fuzzy bliss of wool socks and 9pm bedtimes. Don’t get me wrong. It’s one of the loveliest places on earth. But it also is a place for me to quietly exist alongside my fears and doubts and never truly face them. If there’s something that I’ve learned in my six years living here, it’s that fear plays a big role in my life. I don’t know when I became so allergic to failure, but I’m trying my darnedest to kick it.
For me, that means jumping in before I feel ready, and leaving despite the anchors that hold me here. It’s time, you guys! I will be starting a new job in a new field (excited to share more about that later), and living that NYC life. I can already smell the subway. And those roasted peanut stands. And for the first time in a longtime I feel truly okay with not knowing in the SLIGHTEST how things are going to turn out. I’m channeling my inner Mary Tyler Moore. After all, this is technically the first time I’ll be living in New York as an adult.
Now that the move is quickly approaching, I wanted to ask you guys: have you moved recently? How are you doing? Any tips or words of advice? My friend keeps reminding me that nothing is ever permanent. And finally, if any New York readers want to get together once I’m settled, I would love to meet you! Let me know and we will make it happen. 🙂